June 2013
I think it’s unfair that I can’t have sex before I’m married but at a certain age I can’t have babies. I’ll have to adopt I guess! Maybe I can find a loop hole, like a sperm donor but then I’d never want to create a child and CHOOSE for my child not to have a father. This is very LAME!!!!
Sometimes I feel like …why do I care about this guy so much!? He gives no craps about me or at least I don’t think he does. It just sucks. I wish I could get over him but I guess it’s true about the whole virginity thing….you can’t help but think about him.
Why does it feel like this world is hell bent on making me feel like I'm not good enough
Can you tell I’m hungry?
Why is it so difficult for people to believe in GOD?
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So I was thinking....
While I’m still living with my parents I’m going to start putting apartment stuff on layaway. This way when I get a place it l won’t be EMPTY!! I’m already paying for my bedroom set. I think it’s a good idea but my mom doesn’t think so but….I’m going to do me in this case. Also I’m about to go find these family photographs and make copies…..My folks have all these pictures and don’t frame them and it drives me bananas! What’s the point of having all these photo’s of your family if you’re not going to hang them up! CRAZY!
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I need to hurry up and get my stuff together so that I can have my own place or atleast find a room mate.
when you’re walking and turn a corner and you see someone you’re avoiding
Dating
I think because I never thought guys would ever want me or ask me on a date that I just never bought any clothes or dresses that are proper date attire. So now I’m getting asked out……………………I have no idea what to wear. Not to mention I’m petrified. I’m now starting to see how freaking closed off I am. I’m not a good conversationalist, I’ve never been on a date what am I supposed to talk about. I’m afraid!!!!!!!
I feel so disgusted with myself today
Date was cancelled
I’m happy it was cancelled but I’m not happy why. My dates mother was/is at the hospital because they’ve found cancer in one of her lungs! That’s so SAD! I feel awful and it’s not even happening to my family. My instinct was to call and see if he wanted me to be there but it’s a family thing,and we aren’t even serious I just wanted to support him as a friend but I’ll just call tomorrow .
Hypocrite
How am I suppose to bring others to God and Christ if I’m struggling too? I know I’m not suppose to have it all together but for whatever reason I’m struggling real hard.
